June 30, 2010

In deep, far beneath


I always assumed that the summer lull was brought on by temperatures in the hundreds where even breathing feels unnaturally sticky hot, not wanting to do anything for fear of drowning in even more excess sweat, but those don't-wanna-leave-my-bed summer mornings persist in the cool, gray of Santa Cruz.  Our current room is small and uninspiring, and I do not leave it entirely as often as I would like because going outside would mean bundling up and bundling up would mean foraging through the garage for my winter clothes, and I do not leave my bed until a few more minutes past the alarm in order to psyche myself up for the quickly diminishing heat of the tepid shower.  If it were at all hot, I would be motivated to get my bicycle down from the bows of the garage and get myself down to the beach, but it's not hot at all.  Bundled in a down comforter, I must reassess my assumptions.  And, happily, I must succumb to the warm laziness of under the covers--at least for one more week until my whole closet can reassemble in the new and gigantic closet of the Dream House, and I will be close enough to the beach where I won't be as disappointed if freezing water and fragile nerves are at war.

June 22, 2010

Two and a half weeks in limbo


Typing from a tiny temporary sublet while we settle back into life in Santa Cruz, salads and tacos and consignment stores in this foggy not-quite-summer, happy to figure my way up to campus three days a week before we move into the Dream House on July seventh.  Printing out resumes and in my best outfit, one bottle of nail polish remover until we troll downtown for my second job to supplement ten hours a week before a bout of cinematic regression in 3D; everything feels a little not real, like waiting anticipating until our actual life starts.

June 16, 2010

Pink summer

Tonight as I drift off into downy doziness, pink shoulders sunburnt and bug-bitten, legs biked-sweat-sticky with spilt juice and nectarine drips, dreams baking in the Central Valley dry night heat with the official first day of summer still six days away.